Hey peeps of the internet!
I haven’t posted anything but my first post, I don’t have many people who’ll see this but I really don’t want anyone to see this. But I need to know I’ve told someone (I keep getting told by my friends to talk about my problems but I don’t feel comfortable talking about them, yeah I know they wont judge me, but if I say it out loud I feel stupid even if they say it’s not and yeah). So technically I’m telling a lot of someones.
I don’t know if anyone is going to see this but I need to get this all off of my chest. Warning I’m going to sound like a whiny, middle class, and privileged compared to others, white girl here so I’m sorry if you think these problems are stupid, I know I do but I need to tell them to people who wont respond or try to fix things cause I know what I think is stupid, I just can’t stop myself from thinking these things/ feeling this way.
So here goes.
I’m lazy and stressed, I don’t want to do any work but I can’t help but stress about my fast approaching deadlines. I feel like I’m never going to get things done in time, but I also feel I’m not going to do well so what’s the point.I keep comparing myself to my friends and seeing them being so successful is a downer. I should be pushing myself and believing I can do just as well, but I don’t.